Verse 4

Spirits high
Just the thing that I needed.
Dance with me!
We'll have a blast, I mean it.




----In the Company of Friends----

Verse 3

I am the pillar
And I think it's time for you to fall


----An Epiphany----

Verse 2

Constantly nurtured, somehow.
More passionate than ever.
Will it end?
Perhaps never.

----A Lover's Devotion---

Breakdown

" Hi bud m a lil happier today :)Tx me wen u wak up. Hpe ur nt breakng down still"

Breakdown had been me and my best friend's song yesterday. Going through the same shit and all. I so love the song. I know ya'll will too. Enjoy the music.

Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down

You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me but that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly
And led you to believe I was O.K.
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me

[Chorus:]
Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

[Chorus]

Yeah, c'mon
Yeah, c'mon, c'mon
Break break down
Gotta get control
Roll roll roll along
Steady breakin' me on down
Roll roll roll along
Break break down
Gotta get control
Roll roll roll along
Steady breakin' me on down
Roll roll along

It'll break you down
Only if you let it
Everyday crucial situation wrackin' my mind
Tryin' to break me down
But I won't let it
Forget it
Forget it

I've been feelin' like you're breakin' me down
Kickin' me around
Stressin' me out
I think I better go and get out and let me
Release some stress (stress)

Don't ever wanna feel no pain (pain)
Hoping for the sun
But it looks like rain (rain, rain, rain)
Oh, i just wanna maintain

Yeah, when you feel the pressure's on
But nevertheless
Krayzie won't fall
It's over
It's endin' here, here

[Chorus]

Verse 1

The simplest of simples, magnified.
The ancient, revived.
The ruins, revisited.

----A Curse Bestowed----

Huge thanx to Aiken for the inspiration in writing verses.

i remember

i remember
sitting there ,engulfed by the beauty beside me
again, i see beauty
not within my grasp however
i remember... i love you

Let's Reminisce

I was going though some old stuff then I found my old notebook with my old compositions that I wrote for certain persons in my past. Others were just too embarrassing to post, but here are a few that are “readable” and bearable. Not bad for the teener me, if I may say so but geez, I was such an emo kid! Goodness gracious! I am prepared to be crucified hahahaha!

TO MY LIFE

I posted this on the other blogs but I might as well include it because it was also in the notebook…I still think this is the best that I came up with so far

To the one who makes my heart sing in the midst of my monotonous solitude.
To the one who journeys with me along this taxing road.
To the one who waits patiently for my wisdom to replace my unfounded judgment.
To the one who keeps my sanity at its rightful place..

You are worthy of only unsurpassed things in life--
The warmest comfort in the chills of the winter.
The sweetest smell of a flower in full spring bloom.
The freshest zest in the heat of summer.
The coziest crib on a golden autumn.

Tangible things these four seasons may offer.
But you deserve even more--
Like an infant.. You ought to be cared for.
Protected from the filth of this swift changing world.
Loved like the brightest star in our vast galaxy.
With a magnitude so great.. never go unnoticed.

I may not be that astronomer,
Who ardently keeps his watchful eye on Polaris.
But I can always try..

I cannot promise that tears of pearls may not roll down your porcelain cheeks for the nth time.
For the double-edged blade not to pierce you heart once again.
But they can always be forestalled..

I shall will myself, to be the percussion.. the beat in your heart.
The companion that treks with you on your challenging journeys.
To be clever as the wisest of men as for you not to go astray.
To be life, as you are to me..

BOTTLED UP

Written November 2003

In this bottle, contained are my dreams and fantasies
Waiting for the touch of reality

In this bottle, Surfaced are my pains and fears
Kept afloat by years of tears

In this bottle, held are the keys
To my genuine and lasting happiness

In this bottle, kept are mem’ries
Of good times and miseries

In this bottle, Safeguarded are the love
Bestowed by special persons…
And the One above

An in this bottle…
Preserved is the love that I’d give
Love which has the strength to accept and forgive

These are all the things bottled up in me
But which ones should be kept
And which ones should go?

To the one I gave this bottle to…
I entrust my life to you

TRANSCENDING

Written July 2003

I wrote this without knowing what the definition of Transcending was! Geezus!

Transcend to thee all my love
Transcend to thee my care
Underneath the skies above
My soul to thee I bare

For only through this nakedness
Shall thee, my true love, see
What no one else has witnesses…
The being that is ME.

I battled with demons of my shady past
Calloused by pain and hurt
Through my blissful, strong façade
I survived the cruel world

Yet when cradled in thy protective arms,
I am but a child – vulnerable…scared
I don’t seek for thy sympathy
Nor do I thirst for pity

All I ask for thee is thy love
To quench my barren soul,
That I bore to thee…underneath the skies above

Now, bountiful graces are overflowing
The angels from heaven descending
Singing songs of joy never-ending
Of my love…to you…transcending

THE FATE I HATE

Written God knows when, but this was for my first girl(LDR!!!)

I’m missing you so much right now Raking my brain to shake it off, but how

This feeling has lingered on for so long Sucking the life out of me…but I must hold on

Cold, lonely nights without you
Holidays meant to be shared by us two
Two hearts separated by distance…the enemy
Should this forever be our destiny?

Is being apart our so-called fate? Coz if so, then this fate…I loathe…I hate
For how can life be so unfair?
When into your loving eyes, I cannot stare
Your hands, I cannot hold
Nor can I keep you warm from the bitter cold

I am deprived of your kiss, your caress
Your breath must feel warm on my neck, I guess
How you really are, I wouldn’t know
But that’s not reason enough to let you go
Coz I’d have no one to run to, no one to call
Life without you is not life at all.

UNTITLED

Written Nov 29 –Dec 2, 2002 (wow this took me a while!)

I believe I was still a pothead and a closet case when I wrote this, since I think this is the most emo entry in the series! LOL!

Life was great, ‘twas a blast
Just did anything for the fun to last
Been there, done that, didn’t give a damn
A free spirit that’s what I am

What they thought of me, I didn’t care
Why would I, when nobody was there
To even ask if I was okay
If I could go on another day

Things were like that for a time or so
Days and nights went by so slow
My so-called life was now a routine
Boredom struck me; it was so mean

‘Twas then I realized I was lonely
That I definitely needed somebody
To love and care for solely
To fill up the void that’s deep within me

Lo and behold! There you were
An angel, an answered prayer
The very best of friends we became
But to be more than that, I secretly aimed

Being best buddies was kinda cool
But beneath that was an emotion so cruel
Because the love I felt for you was so true
Sad to say…I just couldn’t have you

You had somebody then remember?
But little did I know, it was me you were after
The 15^th of October came as a surprise
Your declaration of love was my priceless prize

I was once a lost soul baby
But your love has finally found me
A lonely fool I was, too
But you carefully saw me through

Never could I even imagine
That something like this would even happen
That I’d be yours and you’d be mine
Hopefully till the end of time

I just wanna thank you for everything
The trust, the joy, the love you bring
The best in me, you brought out
That’s what genuine love’s about

Lucky we are to have found each other
Compared to you, there’s no one better
So many things I found in you
I love you babe…I really do

“For longer than forever, that’s how long I’ll be true”
With all my heart, that’s what I promise you
You’re far more precious than a diamond shimmering
You’re my life, my soul, my everything